As I've been spending time evaluating this new year and what goals the Lord is showing me and wanting me to work towards, I can't help but think back on what I posted last year. While so much is the same...lots of messes and chaos and little people who need me, I can't help but sigh and say a thank you prayer at how far the Lord has brought me.
Last year, I gave birth to my third child, we listed and sold our home in SC, we moved to Columbus, GA and relocated three times within 6 weeks of being down here.
The Lord provided a beautiful home for us here in Columbus and for the first time in several years I don't feel like life is "on hold" in anticipation of a big event. Like moving, or having another baby.
So this year I was actually able to set some goals and think through what the Lord has for me this year.
This is my first year using Lara Casey's #powersheets and I LOVE THEM. For someone like me who always has about 47 different things going on in my head, the Power Sheets helped me to quiet the noise and figure out what matters to me.
So as I was searching my heart and trying to narrow down what 2017 should look like, the Lord kept revealing a common theme for me. My family. My home. My children. My husband.
I felt Him tugging on my heart to be present in my home.
For those of you who don't know me, I am a Starter. I am all about a project. Let's do it. Let's plant those seeds, start that ministry, help whoever needs help. Let's throw some dynamite into the mess and shake things up.
However, I am not so great at finishing things.
I lack endurance in those projects. I get overwhelmed and want to go start something new. I like the adrenaline rush at the beginning.
And yes, I realize this is not a great thing. It's a huge flaw of mine, and it is something I feel like the Lord is bringing into the light this year. He wants me to endure and to cultivate. He wants me to be faithful.
So my word of the year is nurture.
I love the definition of nurture -
"the process of caring for and encouraging the growth or development of someone or something."
Nurturing doesn't happen overnight. It is a time consuming process. Sooooo...I ain't so good at nurturing. (Ha) But the Lord has shown me that marriage and motherhood are the perfect tools He is using to cultivate those things in me.
I thought at the start of this year that my calendar and planner would be full of volunteering at the homeless shelter, crisis pregnancy center, or church. I thought we would most likely lead a bible study of some kind in our home or lead a small group. And these things may happen at some point in the year!
But the Lord has been calming my heart and showing me that when I am busy "doing things for Him," a lot of times I feel resentment towards the things that get in the way of that...like my children. As my focus goes outward, my frustration grows towards them.
So I feel like this year, for this season, the Lord wants me to nurture my children. He wants me to be present. To listen to the little stories. To read the books. To answer the questions. To sing songs. To change diapers. To teach them about the Lord. To cultivate in their hearts obedience and kindness. To be all in.
He wants me to nurture my marriage. To put down my phone and listen to my husband when he talks to me. To go on dates with Chris. To pray for Chris. To love him to the best of my ability.
So this is what my heart for this year is. To not just plant the seeds, but to water, weed, water again, cultivate and prune the things God is growing in my life. I want to desire and look to the harvest. Knowing that my toil is not in vain in the Lord.
I'd love to hear what the Lord wants for your 2017! Is it a year of planting or growing for you? Comment below or email me some of your goals for this year.
(Note: Please know that I am not saying we should not serve or be involved in church or ministries. Nothing could be further from the truth. And as believers we are called to do these things. However, when I put more priority and importance on those things over my own family, that is where the problem is. And that is what the Lord has shown me I have a tendency to do. Just wanted to clarify. Ha)